Two years.

Looking back on where I was two years ago, I never thought I would be where I am today. Two years ago I thought I knew what my life was going to be like. I thought I had it all figured out. But in a flash, it all got ripped away from me. I had no other plan, no other vision for my life. I was confused, hurt, and heartbroken. At such a low place I knew I couldn't pick up these broken pieces by myself. I was weak and I knew the only one that could help me was God. Leaving God for something that I had made my everything, I wasn't sure He was going to forgive me.

How can He forgive me after everything I've done? I don't deserve anything. I don't deserve His love. I don't deserve His forgiveness. My mind was going 100 miles per hour but I couldn't help but to think, "I've strayed too faraway, He would never forgive me."

But as I continued to press closer to God, I realized that I was wrong. That since the beginning, when I didn't see it, He was always with me. 

Looking back on where I thought I would be, the million things that could have happened but didn't. The way that God had his hand over me the whole time and I thought He had abandoned me, I now see where He was in all of the chaos. He protected me because He had different plans for me then my own. I can't help but to sit here in awe and thank God for saving me. I'm so thankful for Him loving me. I'm so thankful for Him forgiving me. And most of all, I'm so thankful for Him never giving up and leaving me.

If you ever think that you're so far away or have done too much wrong that you can never be forgiven, stop. Remember that God died on the cross because He loved us that much. If you're thinking, He doesn't love me, He wouldn't forgive me, think about what He did for you 2,000 years ago. He washed away all of our sins making us white as snow. Now that if you were the only person on this earth, that He would still die just for you because He loves you that much.

"But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinner, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8

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